terrorism and its aftermath

An year has passed by.........................

but the terror it created is still prevailing...there have been attacks before but this one particularly had an everlasting impact over me...may be because i followed the news for those 6o hours (have seen and heard such things before, but to like million others, they never really bothered me as i had been sooo busy)

watching all of it live on the television gave me goosebumps....at times i didn't realize that i was crying until my mom told me so....we lost few of our best commandos....

all this because 10 armed men crossed the border and killed hundreds of innocent people....

our system has really disappointed me to the core....even after an year the lone terrorist captured 'kasab' hasn't been convicted yet because they think that his "admissions do not amount to confessions"

this is a country where a man stays behind bars for 14years and then they realize that it has been a mistake and he is innocent.....but people like 'Moninder Singh Pandher' (nithari case) and 'Kasab' are not tried just because of the lack of proofs against them...with the testimony of 250 witnesses and strong forensic evidences we are still waiting for the final verdict...Rs.31crores have been spent on him till date (or nearly Rs. 8.5 lakh per day) what an amount of keeping alive a terrorist.....
just wish that the verdict comes out soon and he gets punished for what he has done.....

what next???

Four years of engineering is coming to an end but sometimes i feel as if i still haven't started, sometimes i regret for not taking out time to find out 'what i am really passionate about?' and now when i realize that m in the wrong profession its too late...i might have been scoring decent but of no use when it isn't satisfying my ego, i am not technical....
but if not engineering then what??? since past six months this has been on my mind but still haven't got the answer....modelling, fashion designing or interior designing??? m not sure....and that disappoints me more....
though college life has taught a lot (m not talking about-transformers, motors and controllers...) but not 'what' i wanted to learn...
i am not sure what to do next...took CAT only because thats the best left option for an engineer in these testing times when there are no jobs....like million others even i am going for something that might pay good....and i always thought that i was different huh.....
hope i don't end up saying, what if..........